I think if you've read this blog for a while that you know religion and spirituality both matter very much to me.  That I feel the need to worship God in the most correct manner I can find.

I've been thinking about this for...man, five, six years, I think.  Because it's important.

Writing this down here somehow makes me feel like it's--it's real.  I'm not hiding what I'm thinking or decided on.  I'm letting people know.

I'm converting to Judaism.

There.  I said it. 

That was scary to type, but I'm not deleting it.

If you have any questions you wish to ask me, feel free to do so.  There are many reasons.

The reason that started me thinking on it, though, was...so many people I interacted with called themselves Christian.  And yet, the most un-Christ-like behaviour came from them.  I think that's what started to make me think.  Really think.

It's not the reason I'm converting.  It's just what started my mind working that way.

I need to hit post now.  I'm kind of close to weeping.

Because I mourn what I've lost.  What I'm going to lose.

But I won't pretend.  And after praying for years, after listening to God and looking at my heart, I finally said, "I submit."  It wasn't in the plan.

And I really do mourn the things I'm losing.  Have lost.  Will lose.

But this matters most.

And now I hit post.