Importantt note: I'm behind reading again, because of...well, health being horrible, and I've been hit by the (expected, somewhat, but still not fun) side-effects of the treatment this second week, and I'm...working on surviving right now, frankly, and keeping myself sane with writing while I can. So I'm working to get caught up, to check LJ as much as possible, to work on projects planned with Amanda and Batya KNOWING they'll keep me sane, but my reading is not as great as I'd like, even as it greatly improves.
Comments, though? Those remain sparse; I just can't help that. I apologieze, and I'm doin my best to do so whenever and wherever I can, when I can. My hands are just...increasingly useless, in some ways, and I a) have school-work, b) write to keep sane, c) want to RP more, and d) have off-line needs of hands too. So. Y'know. I don't think I'm asking a lot for you to understand that I'm trying to support where and when I can but that comments literally are too much for me sometimes, but I appreciate the understanding anyway.
I'm annoyed it took me so long to get my layout for DW up, but it is and it's lovely, and my health has been the pits. Therefore, I'm viewing the fact that it's up at all (and rather pretty, imo) as a huge accomplishment.
For the DW blog, I plan to do similar things as at the account of the same name at LJ, but not identical ones. Same daily entry things as always, all the Lyme-related stuff--it's my little corner of activism, as well as my corner of personal trial--and a great deal of fandom things. Hopefully somewhat more organized in the tags, but not a big deal.
I will be having a private-friends-only sort of account here (DW) for my original writing (the f-locked bit) and my essays (which will not be f-locked), and I may create a spirituality-and-religious-issues account at DW; this will not be locked, for the most part, in any way. I do not know if I'll make similar LJ account, but we'll see.
So a general entry now, huh? Well, the fandom things can wait.
My health is providing difficulties. It really is uncomfortable to see the looks of horror people give me when they see the PICC-line, and I know it looks bad. It's uncomfortable and means my hair gets washed twice a week in a salon; there's no real feasible way to do it at home, where even a bath requires wrapping the entire arm repeatedly in saran wrap.
I've been in extreme joint pain, but I've also resisted painkillers in part because a) no new specialist yet, and b) it's tolerable, and when the pain does help at its worst I still can't really use those joints without bringing the pain up again. Finding a new specialist is...one more thing on the list, and one I'm trying not to think too hard about atm.
I'm annoyed at some people for some things, some rational and some irrational, but I'm generally shrugging it off these days; anger is one thing, annoyance another, and I'm trying to remember that.
Please, email me--fireandarose at ymail dot com--if ever you like; I miss being in contact with people the way that being online on IM each night brings or even the way reading an FList brings, but right now, as said--it's beyond me. Emails, however, I sorta set as goals to finish in some ways. It works, anyway.
A post about various things that I guess are related to morals but are also related to things like bullying online and taking advantage of others, along with dishonesty in all its forms (lying, of course, but also duplicity, deliberately keeping things back) is coming, but I'm meditating first on the issue. And, frankly, reading some and praying. I've reached the point of seeing too much (towards others a great deal more than myself, but not exclusively) over time, and heard too many people share they're bothered by the same things but too scared to speak up for me to say nothing on it at this point. We'll see how this goes. I may be metaphorically putting out my head to have an ice-break smashed over it (happened when I was six when I told two older girls to stop calling my (happened-to-be-African-American) best friends by a Very Nasty Word; sorta formed my tolerance to bullying or lack there-of early on) but I'm hoping that it will lead to thought and discussion.
And my hands are used up, so I'll sign off.
[Note to LJ-ers: While all DW posts will be on LJ, not all posts on LJ will be on DW, since I'm not using the DW account for quite as many things. Especially expect that my thoughts on religion and spirituality will remain present, since I doubt I'll create a separate account twice; the use of this one on DW in several ways is for private entries as much as essays, discussions, and such.)
Comments, though? Those remain sparse; I just can't help that. I apologieze, and I'm doin my best to do so whenever and wherever I can, when I can. My hands are just...increasingly useless, in some ways, and I a) have school-work, b) write to keep sane, c) want to RP more, and d) have off-line needs of hands too. So. Y'know. I don't think I'm asking a lot for you to understand that I'm trying to support where and when I can but that comments literally are too much for me sometimes, but I appreciate the understanding anyway.
I'm annoyed it took me so long to get my layout for DW up, but it is and it's lovely, and my health has been the pits. Therefore, I'm viewing the fact that it's up at all (and rather pretty, imo) as a huge accomplishment.
For the DW blog, I plan to do similar things as at the account of the same name at LJ, but not identical ones. Same daily entry things as always, all the Lyme-related stuff--it's my little corner of activism, as well as my corner of personal trial--and a great deal of fandom things. Hopefully somewhat more organized in the tags, but not a big deal.
I will be having a private-friends-only sort of account here (DW) for my original writing (the f-locked bit) and my essays (which will not be f-locked), and I may create a spirituality-and-religious-issues account at DW; this will not be locked, for the most part, in any way. I do not know if I'll make similar LJ account, but we'll see.
So a general entry now, huh? Well, the fandom things can wait.
My health is providing difficulties. It really is uncomfortable to see the looks of horror people give me when they see the PICC-line, and I know it looks bad. It's uncomfortable and means my hair gets washed twice a week in a salon; there's no real feasible way to do it at home, where even a bath requires wrapping the entire arm repeatedly in saran wrap.
I've been in extreme joint pain, but I've also resisted painkillers in part because a) no new specialist yet, and b) it's tolerable, and when the pain does help at its worst I still can't really use those joints without bringing the pain up again. Finding a new specialist is...one more thing on the list, and one I'm trying not to think too hard about atm.
I'm annoyed at some people for some things, some rational and some irrational, but I'm generally shrugging it off these days; anger is one thing, annoyance another, and I'm trying to remember that.
Please, email me--fireandarose at ymail dot com--if ever you like; I miss being in contact with people the way that being online on IM each night brings or even the way reading an FList brings, but right now, as said--it's beyond me. Emails, however, I sorta set as goals to finish in some ways. It works, anyway.
A post about various things that I guess are related to morals but are also related to things like bullying online and taking advantage of others, along with dishonesty in all its forms (lying, of course, but also duplicity, deliberately keeping things back) is coming, but I'm meditating first on the issue. And, frankly, reading some and praying. I've reached the point of seeing too much (towards others a great deal more than myself, but not exclusively) over time, and heard too many people share they're bothered by the same things but too scared to speak up for me to say nothing on it at this point. We'll see how this goes. I may be metaphorically putting out my head to have an ice-break smashed over it (happened when I was six when I told two older girls to stop calling my (happened-to-be-African-American) best friends by a Very Nasty Word; sorta formed my tolerance to bullying or lack there-of early on) but I'm hoping that it will lead to thought and discussion.
And my hands are used up, so I'll sign off.
[Note to LJ-ers: While all DW posts will be on LJ, not all posts on LJ will be on DW, since I'm not using the DW account for quite as many things. Especially expect that my thoughts on religion and spirituality will remain present, since I doubt I'll create a separate account twice; the use of this one on DW in several ways is for private entries as much as essays, discussions, and such.)
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